Tomorrow....

Tomorrow, May 24th, from 0830 hrs to (about) 1730 hrs, I will be taking the medical boards Step 1 exam: the COMLEX. This exam is eight hours long and consists of 400 questions covering everything we have learned during the first two years of medical school. Quite literally, from day one, my medical education has worked to prepare me for this event.

As you might imagine, the stress is incredibly high. Thoughts assault me: What if I fail? What if I'm not cut out to be a physician? What if I've messed up and wasted my life and spent literally hundreds of thousands of dollars for nothing? What if I fail my family? Am I crazy for trying this at my age? And on and on and on....

In the midst of all of this stress two irrefutable facts remain: 1.) God, Who is very real and very close, has been so faithful to help my family and I through these challenging times. Quite literally I would not be here if not for Him; and 2.) My wife and children and many other kind folks have been and remain a source of extraordinary encouragement and support. I am thankful for both of these facts and I feel very honored simply to have the opportunity to sit for this test.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow. I do not know if I will pass this exam. I do know I am going to throw myself at it and, for eight hours, give it everything I have.

Thank you for reading. I'll keep you posted.