Nuts!

On December 22nd, 1944, the US Army was in the Belgian city of Bastogne, surrounded by the German Army. World War II was winding down and the Germans expected an easy victory against the American F Company of the 327th Glider Infantry Regiment, 101st Airborne Division. So sure was the German Army of their pending success that they typed a formal letter to the Americans asking the Yanks to surrender. US General Anthony McAuliffe, after reading the letter, gave his now famous response to the request: "Nuts!" Indeed, the good general had his terse reply typed up in a formal memorandum and sent to the German Army. Initially they did not understand General McAuliffe's reply so the Americans spelled it out for them: they were decidedly not going to surrender. Remarkably, the US Army survived a scaled down German attack and the rest, as they say, is history.

Yesterday, I received the results of my second COMLEX step 1 medical boards exam. Incredibly, and against all odds, I failed yet again. This makes two consecutive failures of my medical boards - a profoundly negative turn of events. The discouragement and shock are intense, as you could imagine.

Now there are pressing questions: should I go on? Would I be a fool for continuing this marathon toward becoming a physician? Am I, at this point, simply putting off the inevitable reality that I simply cannot make it?

Someone once said that the true timbre of a man is determined by the manner in which he handles his failures as much as his successes and I believe this to be true. I am not under the illusion that I am not in a most difficult position. Two failures look very bad on my transcripts and are a definite big bump in the road when it comes to residency applications. On top of all of this, my family is suffering as finances become increasingly strained. Would it be fair to them for me to try yet again?

Needless to say my family and I have been in much prayer. I have consulted with one of the deans of my school and with multiple professors. My family, friends, and faculty all tell me the same thing: don't give up. Don't surrender.

I am surrounded. The enemy is pressing in on every side. I am assaulted by failure, fears, and financial strain. These formidable foes have told me to turn in my stethoscope, told me it's time to move on to something else...

Nuts!

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